Conversations With God

Hi Folks,

Here’s one of the verses from my Conversations With God Inspirational Line geared to address common themes with which we struggle or desire in plain speaking, directly from God … to you and me.

This post was sparked by a ”Thinking About You” email from a church sister wherein I found myself sharing the above graphic verse which I’d happened to discover and utilize this morning. I then found myself moved to share with her how the above-mentioned verse came about:

It was 2003, I still lived in New York at the time.  It was two days after my birthday and I was sitting in my van outside the neighborhood library (always a place of comfort and/or sanctuary to me) questioning God, pen and back of a crumpled  bill in hand, all set to record my thoughts for clarity.  However, when I began writing, the above verse emerged and five others with it.  I was on fire!  I was filled with inspiration, my crumpled “writing pad” fast running out of space as the words flowed effortlessly.

It was truly an “aha!” moment and I knew that those words were not destined for me alone.  I was meant to share them with other women … heck, with  anyone who desires love, needs to let go, needs to be strong, etc. 

Man, I must have annoyed everyone for the ensuing two months.  Emailing those verses willy nilly, mailing them out to folks and everything … getting the word out.  I kept myself so busy “helping others” I had yet to deal with the message of the above verse found in the corresponding scripture: There is no fear in love…

This message was definitely for me … but I put it on the backburner in my zeal to “help others” better known as avoidance or failing to deal with the real.  Oh come on, don’t act like I’m the only one who does that.  I’d warrant that we’ve all had moments where God had to remind us to take the beam out of our own eyes before we attempt to do so for others. 

I didn’t mean to be difficult or anything, really, I didn’t, but as wonderful as the revelations were about letting go, source of my strength, love etc. I wanted to redirect God’s attention to the fact that I’d asked one question and it seemed that He had given me answers to questions that were not on my scale of importance at that point in time.

Does that mindset sound familiar to you?  How many of you realize that God doesn’t do surfacing… He stays true to form of being a heart God and goes straight to the heart of the matter?

So there I was asking Him why He’d allowed the recent events in my life, when for once in my life I was in full compliance with His will and His answer was:

There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete, Perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love's complete perfection]. ~1 John 4:18 (AMP)

Huh?!?!

Umm… God?  Not to be thick, rude, irreverant or anything that will get me zapped with lightening … again (that’s another story)  … I really thank your for the revelations,  but I’m having a bit of a problem understanding how they tie into my question?

In retrospect even as I write this, the answer is so obvious, but at that point in time I was drawing a serious blank.

You see, I wanted to hear … nay, expected to hear things that sounded like, “You’re a wonderful person!”, “Prosperity is on its way!”, “Your doo-doo doesn’t stink!” you know… the I’m okay, you’re okay responses I would have gotten from my yes friends, had I kept in contact with them… LOL.  (But … again, that’s another story. Yes, stick around … I have lots of them.)

What I was looking for, frankly, was a Word from God that would explain His recent actions or actually, what I saw as lack of intervention on my behalf. I was even willing to “help” Him out by suggesting the “Ram in the Bush” scenario but apparently God had His own agenda.

Confused?

I guess I have dropped you into the middle of things so I’ll back up a bit and give you a hint of what was going on in my life at that point in time:

To Be Continued…